Hope, Orgasms and Certainty.

Square peg

Round hole

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Sorry

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Constantly proving

Always failing

Disappointing

Looking for answers

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Not getting them

Not the ones I want

Faith in the universe

Failing again

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How can God be so cruel?

Give me these gifts

These visions

This desire

This dream

This unwavering relentless craving

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And not deliver

Not meet me half way

As much as we can create our world

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Can we?

Do we?

Sometimes I wonder.

Sometimes I doubt.

But I always have hope.

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Is hope just a cruel feeling?

It feels like a wish, like we don’t believe it.

Not fully.

I am done with hope.

Time for a new feeling.

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Let it be one of certainty.

I am certain I will still fuck it up.

Some where

Some time

Probably more than once

I am certain I will piss people off.

Some where

Some time

I am certain this love I feel will never die.

This hunger will still be throbbing even when I have
“made it”

I am certain my dreams will come true

A lot have already

I forget that sometimes.

I am certain this gift was not given to me by accident.

That I know.

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I am certain that some day,

Some where

Some time

I will look back on this moment and say…

If only she knew what was coming.

If only she knew that answers have their own time line.

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I want it so bad I can taste it

And the flavor is like an orgasm in my mouth.

But if I concentrate too much on the orgasm it goes away.

If I don’t concentrate on the orgasm it goes away.

The paradox.

When we surrender to the orgasm and let it become us

Guide us

Embody us

Connect and expand through us

Feeling love in each moment

Without clinging to any of it too tightly

Then

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Then

It’s implosive and explosive

We are one in that moment.

All moments

But not before I am certain.

 

 

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